I am a millennial. Generation Y. Born between the birth of AIDS and 9/11, give or take. They call us the global generation. We are known for our entitlement and narcissism. Some say it’s because we’re the first generation where every kid gets a trophy just for showing up. Others think it’s because social media allows us to post every time we fart or have a sandwich for all the world to see. But it seems that our one defining trait is a numbness to the world. An indifference to suffering. I know I did anything I could to not feel. Drugs, booze, just take away the pain. Take away my asshole father, and all the boys I loved who wouldn’t love me back.I would give everything I have, or will ever have, just to feel pain again. I can’t feel shit. I can’t feel anything. We think that pain is the worst feeling. It isn’t. How can anything be worse than this eternal silence inside of me? I used to not eat for days or eat like crazy and then stick my fingers down my throat. Now no matter how much I binge I can’t feel the soul inside me. I can’t take it anymore.
Posted on May 1st at 1:18 PM
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